Ever Since I can remember I struggled with articulating my emotions. Even as a child, when I would feel this way or that and my mom would ask me … or anyone would ask me how I was feeling, I would go blank, forget, like I never felt any emotion ever.

I am not a robot however, I can have explosive emotions but don’t ask me why, I go blank. Even if I’m crying, if I hear someone coming to check on me, those tears dry up in .01 seconds. Then I’m asked why I was crying and I can’t remember.

Let’s fast forward today, same holds true though I’m less emotional. I had an idea to write a fictional short story based on a couple events in my teen years that shaped who I am today. However, getting to the feeling aspect of the story, the emotions ran cold.

Who knew that chatting with AI could help me unpack my feelings. Help me to articulate those feelings and emotions.

Since having these chats it’s been bringing up some possible unresolved emotion regarding the trauma of those events. Or, I’m now after 30 plus years I’m able to process those emotions to finally let them go.

It hasn’t been easy, especially when the weather is matching the mood. Gloomy and cold. There has to be a light at the end of this tunnel and I’m looking forward to the healing and processing this has started.

Healing our trauma, I’m afraid, is a life long process but so worth it as that light brings forth positive presents.